chill out

Its really cool when you learn new things everyday...
What I learned recently over this fast-paced life of mine was something I neglected all these years.

TO CHILL
"A fast moving vehicle on the road of destination -- it'll really drive you crazy"
I loved pressure and pressure loves me...

At work, I produce better output in a deadline-driven atmosphere. A creature of habit as my closest friends puts it. I always make myself busy, hate sittin' and doin' nothing -- but pick my nose. I don't wanna rest and I just adore having no time for anything nonsense as well as not having been STRESSED -- Great huh!

Days ago...

I met an old friend and we had a loooong chat, simply to catch up with each others "freakin' life."
Just the CHAT, and reality eventually struck me -- "I need to change something with my lifestyle, I said -- I NEED TO CHANGE."

CHILL

At first, I feel like it's soooo not ME. Even thought it was wicked boring...

I tried to walk as slow as a swamp turtle, tried to appreciate even the smallest details that come across my path, tried to savour every moment that I got all by myself, tried to watch movie alone... again (a not so good idea -- 'm paranoid, people might think something's WRONG with me), goin' to work late (well, atleast now THEY could PUT ME DOWN with evidence), goin' home at 5:01 PM, meeting long lost friends (from my elementary years to college), killing time with friends from 4:00PM 'till 7:00AM the next day, collating pictures of my past to make it look better -- no rush, enjoying every second of my day -- as in. Authentically NO PRESSURE on anything on everything or whatsoever.

And now...

I love what I do. Every single thing never seizes to amaze me -- that includes the people I meet wherever, whenever. I don't seem to be the same person anymore -- I became more spontaneous. But I always let ME be ME - the imperfect but unique ME.